More on Loss and its Complexities:

Grief Triggers

Loss

Fear of loss

finding balance

and

just missing the way things used to be

often stir up emotions

wishes

dreams

hopes

doubts

complexities of life.

My prayers and thoughts to all those who are digging out from the devastation of the recent Tornado paths.

To those in shock and horror in Ohio

my thoughts are with you,

and

to that coach who instinctively

took charge,

"thank you",

you are a man to be hugged, to be thanked

and

to be held UP by so many.

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For those in the political arenas

around the country,

to Virginia and its Governor,

it is "past time"

women STAND UP,

men wake up

and

realize ...

Women have rights,

you enjoy your freedom, your rights,

your choices as Americans?

STOP trying to take away those very freedoms

choices and rights

of

Women.

Rush Lim*brainless*, someone take this piece of human pus off the airwaves,

he is dangerous, he is mean, he is

perverse, and I will not support

any of those who support his airtime.

List of supporters to come!

Don't like something?

Don't do it.

Like your rights as an American?

Leave the rights of others alone.

These are some frightening times.

Grief

is not just a response or reaction following a death of physical form or a person or something we have loved and held precious.

It is experienced by inches at times

when something or someone we love

is close to us,

right beside us

or

within us!

Many will speak of those feelings and experience the many and varied stages of

loss and grief

during times of upheaval in their lives,

in times of great change.

Often I've heard people describe

grief responses

when one they love is ill,

when a major/significant change has occurred

in their world.

Times that create those reactions
in your life

when your world seems upside down

and

split between surreal and real
and
words that are hard to muster,

and

it doesn't quite make sense in the grand view of how it has been planned out.

Friendships, family members, bonds that were suppose to last forever

that somehow change

and

lead to

separation, detachment, estrangement,

divorce

for examples.

When you think you know someone
well,
have built a foundation
a relation
based and created and nourished
of thoughts/beliefs
or
 so intimately.

...

At times people will talk about knowing

the place they work, the people they spend the bulk of their time with,

the organizations that they dedicate their service to,
ones they represent
and
do their best for.

Many across the country now

feel they have no voice anymore,
feel that they are just there to fill a space,
some

afraid to say what they think or feel.

For if they do?

They have seen others be told,

"if you don't like it ... Leave".

There have been relationships similar to that type of toxic work environment,

relationships

built on belief systems, trust, honesty

and time given to nurture and foster

a greater love to sustain through years

in the good and bad times.

But something changes,

well hell everything changes,

we all change,

but some things are just supposed to stay the same right?

When we give, love, nurture, honor

and trust.
We mourn our dreams, our youth, our health
our
well you can get the drift here.
Grief is a frequent companion in all phases
of life.

...

We find our belief and trust
our feelings; that it is reciprocal

over time,

we've been taught that, if we are

we've been loved or respected for who we are

and

our word, that love will be returned in similar ways.

When relationships fail,

and

during the times that they begin to fall apart,

there are signs and symptoms

of

not only the failed relationships

that often get missed;

but it just may be that our vision is clouded

as a result

of experiencing

GRIEF as it is happening.

Grief takes you off your game, so to speak.

Things begin to not make sense,

vision gets cloudy,

many are not hearing the very words that are being said.

Others are hearing only parts of the sentence,

and those parts are the ones that are hoped for

rather that what is being intended.

People begin to see only what is hoped for,

what was rather than what is.

Grief

in all its wonder

can color the view like a kaleidoscope

and

depending who is looking through that narrow opening

the view will look different and continually change and the other end is manipulated.

Loss is Loss

and

it truly is painful

and

takes time, support and understanding to get through it.

It is grief; it is a journey that will grab you and make you pay attention.

It also will make people question why you call it grief!

Many will not understand

how could you feel you are grieving when no one has died; many will ask why and how could you grieve when you chose to walk away from a relationship.

It is in those times

that your grief feels disenfranchised

or

not acknowledged by those you may need the most.

There have been some relationships

in which it has taken

30 years for someone to show another

"who they are"

and it is only then that hard choices have to be made, and the words of

Maya Angelou will never be more true.

"When someone shows you who they are,

believe them"

Working with people with Alzheimers

and listening to family members

one often hears grief expressed

and not "anticipatory grief" that is read about.

But very real grief, as families express their daily losses, of watching, hearing, witnessing the loss of a loved one while they are still alive.

Their grief is real alive

along with the person they love.

At the time of a funeral yes there will be a finality, a sadness, but often one will hear families and friends declare,

"I did my grieving while they were alive"

or

"I lost him/her a long time ago".

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"To spare oneself from grief at all cost can be achieved only at the price of total detachment, which excludes the ability to experience happiness" Erich Fromm

Yes, grief in its complexities, the emotions, feelings, physical spiritual emotional

is tremendous.

It happens as we mourn our youth,

our dreams,

our loved ones who are no longer sitting across the table.

It happens as friendships are dissolved

as

bonds that we knew would last forever are disrupted and choices are made to

end relationships

and just walk away; walk away mad, angry, hurt, astonished or

as enemies.

It happens as we see 1/2 of all marriages and unions ending in divorce;

there are still upsurges of grief reactions.

Circles/cycles/phases/stages

Life at its best/worst

Life in all its splendor

through painful loveliness.

And still,

NO ONE

wants to talk about

loss, death, grief,

and yet we bear witness to it,

go through it

each second, each minute, each hour

of each and every day.

"The risk of love is loss, and the price of loss is grief ~ But the pain of grief is only a shadow when compared with the pain of never risking love. ~ Hilary Stanton Zunin ~

There are sometimes

when everyone has or will say

"good-bye"

and in that saying

it will be final,

there will be a point of no turning back

and

yet even then their will be grief triggered,

but it will also be a time when there is a final and clear resolution to a time and a relationship.

In that way it is most compelling

and

so very different from grieving a most beloved treasured loved one,

on with whom you are now faced with finding ways to continue the relationship in a healthy and most different way.

But yes,

grief will and is

playing out in our lives right this minute

and

probably in ways unimagined.

And yes,

sometimes

"good-bye" is the only thing left to say.

I know that no one likes to feel it,

no one likes to talk about it,

no one

really likes to have to deal with it.

BUT

perhaps that is why we get so very involved when grief is made public,

when stars and celebs die,

when grief is then sanctioned

and given a voice.

YOU are as if not more important,

you and that which is sacred to you

are as important as anything or anyone.

We have to learn to talk, feel openly,

in order to heal.

Sure wish we could bring back rituals

that allowed others in the community to recognize those who are grieving,

perhaps it would make for a kinder place

and

one that allowed others to relate easier.

Remember those black armbands?

Back when the community knew that if a person got on an elevator looking like they had lost their best friend,

the could tell at a glance that indeed they had

...

Wherever you are,

Whatever you are doing today,

I wish you all that you dare to dream.

Walk In Beauty,

DRSES

"keepin it real"

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